I didn't want to admit it, but I started testing at 8dpo - just to see.
8dpo - BFN (no surprise, but it is amazing how stark white the test can be!)
9dpo - BFN
10dpo - faint line on strip test - don't have to squint or tilt or anything to see it. It's definitely there (From what I can see on the "preview" of this page, you may have to squint to see it, though). Tried to confirm with digital. Nada - "not pregnant".
Tried again later that evening on a strip to see if it got darker. I think it got a little darker.
 |
| Bottom: 5:30 am; Top: 9:30 pm. |
So now it's 11dpo and I test at 5:15 am with FMU. Check it out:
 |
| See that BFP there?!?! |
WOW! OMG! It's real. BFP!
Really real.And now I'm kinda freaking out. I want this so much. But I'm also really nervous. I want it to stick and I want everything to go well. And I want to fast forward through time. Even with the positive, the 2ww isn't over until the blood test on Friday. And then, from what I understand (and I've done a LOT of reading), it's just more waiting between milestones. Yikes.
I'm freaking out that something will go wrong and this won't be real. I'm glad I got the positive this morning because of course I freaked myself out all day yesterday that choosing to run the 5K was a poor choice. I'm over analyzing everything - trying to plan for finances, where I will live, what job I will have etc.
I am truly truly thankful and recognize that I am inordinately blessed! I think my doctor is going to be really surprised that I got pregnant on the first try with my fertility numbers. Trying to think positive: I've convinced myself that I dropped multiple eggs, and that's why my fsh is so high - I generally kick out more than one egg per cycle (possible as there are a lot of twins in my family). I also have always wanted twins! Though, I also keep dreaming that there are 3 in there. 3 is a lot. However, I will be happy with my blessing(s), whatever the quantity! :)
I'm pregnant. Wow.
Congratulations!! Another 1st timer! & that is a pretty clear line for 11dpo, looks great!! Mine were very faint at 10dpo so yours look awesome!!
ReplyDeleteI'm loathe to give advice but when you wrote you wanted to fast forward made me a little sad. I worried my entire pregnancy away & when I look back, I feel I did myself a disservice to not just be in the moment of my pregnancy. Worrying won't change the out come either way so try to just reveal in the joy of it all.
Congratulations again!!!
Thanks Tiara!
ReplyDeleteI'm trying hard not to worry because worrying won't help anything. But it's much easier said than done.
Still cautiously excited!